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Have you ever wondered how or why one word can have different meanings? One word, more than one meaning or interpretation, said to or said by different people. The same word, different extent of importance, different level of understanding. How can one word mean so much to someone yet nothing to another? How does one word be said with much fear by one yet said freely by another to another? Why then does something mean so much to one yet just any other task to be concerned with or just an object to achieve? This word. One word. The usage of this word has resulted in yours truly to be filled with much paranoia and questions. Only because of its vitality. Why is it that when the word is said, the benefit of doubt should be given? I, for one, will not believe in this word. This word. One word has made me lost much trust. This word. One word. You may or may not have guessed it already, but let me give you a hint: the title of this entry is.... The L word.

ps- The word is.. Lynette! Havent you heard of not jumping to conclusions?

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"I hate when you’re thinking about something and you refuse to tell me what it is. It makes me second guess myself. Did I say something wrong? What impression am I setting? Are you thinking of someone else you’d rather be with? I hate not knowing."

What do you see when you look at me? The kind of girl who means everything to you and makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her. The kind of girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about her beautiful smile, and when you finally fall asleep, she’s all you dream about. I hope she’s the first thing to cross your mind when you wake up in the morning. I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand, yet you know it’s for the better. I hope she’s the kind of girl you would die for. The kind of girl who could make you cry, even though you’d never admit it. The kind of girl who makes you want to go out and do something special, something that means everything to the both of you. The kind of girl you can have silly fights with, then kiss and make up, and hold her in your arms like you’re falling in love all over again. I hope you make memories with her you never forget. I hope she’s your world, and what you have with her is nothing less than perfection.
I don't know what you see in me, the way you look at me, the way we meet, the way we talk, the way you hold me.. I hope not to feel unimportant and a part of your life, knowing I'm that girl.

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And honestly, I have been begging for answers. That you and only you can give to me. A voice crying loud. I've been crying for days now. And as I start to run, I stop to breathe.
The words were nearly over us.
(And I pause to think) does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?
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Legal !!\m/

Attica for legal-not-legal party last Wednesday. Fucking horrible.
Joeyh's celebration @ Sentosa on Saturday.
My birthday celebration on Monday 13 JULY- Dinner w the girls my treat I'm a power friend plus surprise surprise. Credits to Shahridan hahaha!

Lazy to blog but anywayz everyone shld read www.riverbelow.blogspot.com
Free advertisement.
I'm flattered but damn paiseh leh.. People speak so highly of me. ^^
Prelims are in 6wks but I taking it too easy already leh when I didnt do that much better than for Commontests in March. Its abit screwed up but cannot bring myself to start studying. Yet.
Need to try. Soon.
Till then, I will be browsing Lookbook & Sgflea faithfully.

13 December 2006
3 years ago & fated or not, it was the 13th too. Omgggg. This is freaky.

"hey homie, i just want you to know that you're probably the most tolerant girl i've ever met. i swear, all this life, i haven't met a girl as strong as you.. i just don't want to see my classmate, my friend, my ex-churchie, my homie, my whoever to get hurt again and again. and trust me, if you were beside me, i'd have pat your head, give you a hug, and console you. please stop crying, homie.

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OMG. I want this F21 Denim Jacket. Cant post pictures, something's wrong.
I'll even tell you where to buy it from because 13 July is only about 2 weeks away.
Please... I really want it. Although I dont know how it looks like in real life.

http://dramagiselle.livejournal.com/10825.html ^_^

Lookbook is awesome. Everyone is skinny & pretty. In one word, lookbook-worthy. Technically, thats 2 words but anyway besides the point. All you do is sit, look amazingly gorgeous & smile for the camera. Just amazing. Makes you look, and look and look somemore. For 2 hrs to be more specific. 5 months & the website's still so addictive. So, in about 20mins, I will become just like one of them. Pretty and skinny.. when I fall asleep.

But, before that, I need to cab over to Signature Park because someone called to say I left my heart there.
HA HA HA. Not funny.

Tuition is in 6 hours. 1 day break tmr and midyears continueing on Thursday. I have no birthday plans on the 13 July 2009. I miss the girlsss so hard to meet w exams & school lah sial. The JC life is ending in 5 months. This is sad but I'm still happily browsing sgflea.

Goodnight to whoever you are reading this. :)
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If you know my number & happen to read this, please text me. Immediately. because..
SOMEONE STOLE MY IPHONE YESTERDAY.
FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I GOT PICK-POCKETTED (or more specifically, pick-bagged)
IT WAS DAMN CROWDED I SHLDNT HAVE LEFT MY PHONE IN MY BAG LAH
FUCKING IPHONE. I MISS TAP TAP REVENGE & SCRAMBLE & STICKMAN WARS :(
ONLY 1 MTH OLD NEW.
I TELL YOU I CRIED LIKE CRAZY. AND I HAVENT GOTTEN OVER IT.
PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. BUY ME ONE.
13 JULY COMING. PLEASE. :(

AFTER MY 1K PHONE BILL IN 1MTH (all because I didnt know Singtel charges for using Wireless@Sg), LIFE IS HARDCORE PATHETIC.
ESP SINCE EXAMS ARE IN 1.5 WKS. WHICH I SHLD GET BACK TO MY BKS AFTER TAKING A NAP AFT DOING ONLY 45MINS THE WHOLE DAY TODAY.
THIS IS PATHETIC AND DEPRESSING.

FUCK YOU THE PERSON WHO STOLE MY IPHONE
HOPE.. NO, I WANT YOU TO BURN IN HELL


1 Iphone !!!

2 Jane Street Neda by Kate Spade

3 Fred Perry Kalypso Canvas Shoes

4 Denim Blazer by Scarletroom.lj or Hocuspocusing.lj (Cant find pictures!)

5 Chanel / Agnes b Necklace

13 July!
Not that much to ask for riiight?
'WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS $375 LEH' HEEHEE ^^
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Intake is increasing. Need to catch my breath, quite literally.

School, has been school. GP paper on Friday which was also the last day of school.
But I still have to go back to school alot this month of June holiday -.-
Have alot to catch up. And alot, I mean the whole syllabus last yr & this yr.
Chemistry is this coming Wed so trying to study till then. Fuck alkanes alkenes alcohols carboxylic acid halogen derivatives carbonyl compounds stoichiometry redox reaction kinetics, brain dead already but the list goes on.
Like seriously. Fuck Chem!! I cannot get another U = F9 = GPA 0.1 (Anyhow only ha) = less than 40% NO WAY.
Then after, I've to use the whole of June to mug because after that comes Maths Econs and Geog immediately school reopen.
Secretly hoping school will close due to H1N1. Please.
And then time will fly like nobody's business and prelims and finally As will come my way.
Need to buy Freedom from As perfume. Soon. In about 5mths.

My papers end on 9 July. Legal 13 July coming.
To the BEST sisters ^_^ hahaha, you got a job to plan on 11 or 12 or 13 July also can.
Clubbing 21 July? Cos thats the wkend I'm legal HA.
And everyone else too! Go ahead lo, say I have no shame.
But its cool, I'm not expecting anything.

Well maybe..




















Still think my maid stole my Agnes b necklace been more than 3mths alr. Used my own money & Agnes b stop selling some more! Pisses me off even further.
They're both so tiny. See, nothing big at all.

But yes, I'm not expecting anything. Really. Its fine. We'll still be friends. Seriously. Its only my 18th birthday. Nothing big. Not like I'm turning legal. No need for any unneccessary hoo-ha. Its no big deal. It's cool. Really. I swear. No, seriously. I think I can go on forever hahaha.

K GDNIGHT. 13 July!
Its cool, no biggie. At all. (repeats above)

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Commontests have ended eons ago but I've still been taking retests after retests, and including re-retests since I didnt get 60% for the retests.
Have to keep taking until I get 60% which sounds so far away since I got 30% for retests. Daaaamn.
I'm under compulsary night study till 9pm everyday, or at least 3days a wk which wow, sounds way better -.-
Well, with school aside, nothing much is going on.
IN SEARCH FOR A MORE EXCITING LIFE. PLS BUY ME ONE.

Pictures during Nationals. More on Facebook if you happen to see them cos I dont update.
Looove da team-mates who makes the monotonous JC life exciting. Happy training times :)


















I look so cool when I'm focused. \m/ \m/ \m/




Town last week. Dinner + girls played L4D + taohuay + lots of love!

BBQ at Serene's last night was goooood.
Good music thanks to US GIRLS who paid for Yuyu's speakers ^^ + chaotah food + all shameless hardcore clubbers dancing by the BBQ pit cos they wanna save money (HAHA) + lots of love!
GOOD TIMES, GOOD TIMES.. ^^ Except for my fucking horrible hair now that I see it :(

TILL NEXT TIME.
XOXO, GOSSIP GIRL. ^^

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The past few weeks have been pretty, rough.
My commontests were like fuck.
Please dont ask why, I cant answer that either.
For the first time in 10yrs of education, I was sent to meet the Principal, with abt 70 others though for getting 22/100 for Maths.
The rest are all the same standard. You can guess how badly I did.
And now I'm trying to study for my Maths retest this Saturday (Cool weekend horZ) which I've t get 60/100 or cannot register for Maths Alevels. The Principal is.. -.-
If I really get 60 I think I damn powerZ cos I cant even do the basics now.
Actually knew the results last wk alr but only told my mum today.
She v cool abt it I also dno why HA.

The only things that are keeping me sane now are ______ & meeting ppl + girlsss, which I've t cut down probably by mid-yr, although I only meet them either Fridays or Saturdays or both.
Instead of feeling motivated t study harder, it feels fucking demoralizing.
I'm starting on tuitions soon. Makes me regret jc like shit but bo bian :(
CANT WAIT FOR SCH TO END SRSLY.
7 MONTHS TO As & I'M OUT OF THIS SHITHOLE.
I. CANT. WAIT.!

Confessions of a Shopaholic @ Town on last Monday






















































I actually skipped sch this day cos I had cramps but mainly for Sharon da Emo Kid.
My mum was a huge bitch about me going out & coming home late when I was supposed t be unwell.
It was my dad who came t comfort me for the first time in an extremely long time.
Such times make me realize how I take things around me for granted, in this case my Dad since he's always not at home cos of work.
Yes, I'm a v filial daughter ^^


Aimless slacking at Heeren Macs last Saturday + Love HK & Taiwan Movie + Supper





























































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